My Hands Hold Safely To My Dreams....

I'm finding myself in a rut. I'm not really sure what I'm suppose to be doing. I'm opening my heart and mind to God, and trusting that he will guide me in what to do. I'm applying to work at Green Lake Conference Center as Quest Staff. But I'm confused in the fact that I still feel as though ICBC has a hold on me. I applied at ICBC because I felt called to a summer ministry. When I found out I got the position I was so excited. As school was winding down I began thinking about camp and how it could possibly help me prepare for other ministries. Yes it did, but now that I have spent a summer there I feel like it has a hold on me. I miss Camp. I miss Camp Staff. Even through the drama, I still would do it over again. As I sit here with tears in my eyes, I remember the good, the bad, and the ugly. I'm just not really sure where God wants me. I know that he will place me where I'm suppose to be. But even two months later, I still feel like there is an ICBC shaped hole in my heart.