Making Time for Tuesday.

Like always, God had a lesson for me today. Ya see, I was super stressed about some money issues with me leaving for New York tomorrow. I was really angry, but then something happened. I found out that my dear friend Andrew was admitted to the hospital. This changed everything. As many of you know, I love this child. He is so precious and God has used him to make a huge change in my life.

As I drove to the hospital I began to think a lot of things. God has to be telling me something or trying to show me something. So I took a good friends advice, be still and listen. So I did. Well kinda, since my car was still moving. :)

All in all, God was telling me to stop looking at the materialistic things in life, and Look at the Love that we should all have for each other. It's not about how much money you have, or what kind of car you have, or how much your prom dress is. They will know we are Christians by our love.

Just thought I'd share. I should get back to packing. Something I definitely do not love. lol Have a good one! See ya when I get back from NYC!

God Holds my Future.

Thank you, God, that you
have engraved me on the
palm of your hand. You hold
my future, so I never have
reason to fear. Through you I
have the gift of eternal life,
and your faithful guidance
makes my life full.

--Promises for Students

This is so true. I'm so thankful that God is my present and Future. :)

Changes :)

Oh Change, How I know the well :)

SOO many things showed me how much my life is going to be changing in the next few months. The weekends are going to start rolling soon. I go to New York in Two weeks. I'm so excited. I love Musicals and we are definitely going to see Wicked and Hairspray! I'm just excited that my life will soon be changing. I graduate in a month and a week. I never thought this day would come, but now that it is I'm more excited then anything. The weekend before Graduation is when I go on my Journey. I'm pretty excited about it.

And a couple days after Graduation, I'll leave for camp. I'm so excited for this. I feel truly blessed that God has put me into this position.

I guess you could say that I'm over this place. I'm over the high school drama. I'm over the rumors. I'm just done. I'm so ready to be out of it. And I know that after high school is not going to be all roses. I just really can't be in that school.

Honestly though, A lot of my drama is coming from another source. But we won't go into that. I'm tired. And I've rambled enough. :)

Love you guys!

p.s. Did I mention I have a date this weekend? :) :) :)

Rumors.

So today was a down day. It started to rain and for some reason I knew it just wasn't going to be good. So my day is going okay. Then BAM last period something happens. Rumors Start FLYING. and I don't even know what to do or say to them. Obviously they aren't true.

Now I could deal with a rumor about me saying that I was loud or annoying but not the one that was thrown at me. but this one was heart wrenching. It honestly almost made me sick to my stomach. And not only did it hurt me, it hurt the other party involved. The other party use to be one of my BEST friends. But its quite obvious that we aren't anymore. They don't believe me. And honestly I don't know what to do. Hate to break it to ya but I DO have Morals, unlike some others.

It honestly feels like people are just flapping their traps about things that aren't true. And you know I started to think about well if they don't believe me then well its their faults. I know I'm right and I guess thats all that matters. But its not okay. It makes me feel like all the friends I've had are liars. They are spreading things that aren't true. I mean don't get me wrong, not ALL of my friends are doing this to me. I don't know it just feels like they don't care anymore because I'm not going to be here in a couple months.

I'm graduating next month. And leaving for camp not even a week later. I'm so excited for this opportunity, but one thing I didn't plan on doing is forgetting about my friends back home. I feel bad for saying this, but I really wish I was out now. Just gone away from this high school. I hate this.

But I'm better than this. I'm not going to let this rain on my parade. My week has been amazing and for someone to come in and pounce on it like this is just Ridiculous. So I'm keeping my head held high and am going to push through this :)

Thanks for the Encouragement Becky :)

:)

My Song of the day is......



What It Means--By Jeremy Camp

Check it out! Its pretty amazing!

He is so Amazing.

Well as most of you know, I applied for a staff job at Indian Creek Baptist Camp! Also most of you know I'm probably one of most impatient people on the earth. So When I found out that I wouldn't know about camp til this week, I kinda pouted. But God Just wanted to teach me patience. I'm So excited to say I got the Job! :) Yay! lol! Most of you who are reading this already knew this, but hey I'm excited!

Just wanted you all to know how Much I love and appreciate you. Thanks for being patient with me and praying for/with me! I love you Guys!

Open my eyes.

God is trying to tell me something right now. What he is trying to tell me is not really all that Clear. So I guess my song today would be Open the Eyes of my Heart. I'm trying so hard to just hear him. But It's not easy.

Letting Go.

I'm proud of myself today.

I'm handing it over. I'm not stressing any longer. Because ultimately, what I am suppose to do is going to happen. Whether I like that decision or not. I'm going to have to deal with it.

A couple weeks ago I got a letter from my huddle leader from FCA camp. And she put some scripture in it. And I fell in love.

Psalm 62:5-8
"Find rest, oh my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress- I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge."

I plan on doing that ^^ :)